I GET IT. I really do. This is a hard,
unpleasant life. And a lot of good Chosen, Proxies, have decided that
they are on the wrong side of things. I WAS ONE OF THEM. For a brief,
brief time. Nightscream did it. Reach did it. Both Redlights did it,
though more Spencer than the other guy. Tensor did it, but Tensor was
an idiot. And now... The Wolf Pack has gone rogue. But you know what
REALLY SUCKS about that situation? It isn't their fucking fault. Its
like... They've been kicked out of the Family. And why? Really, WHY?
I know Father doesn't have to tell us ANYTHING, and he normally
doesn't. We are his tools, to use and discard as he sees fit. But the
Pack were REALLY good tools. And they just got their deadliest weapon
back, at the cost of their least deadly. IT IS AN OPPORTUNITY. AGH.
SO I JUST DON'T GET WHY THEY'VE BEEN KICKED OUT.
Frustrating. REALLY frustrating. Agh.
Fucking Jimmy had no answers. Idiot
barely seemed to know what I was talking about. So FUCKING
unprofessional. I shouldn't have to explain the fucking JOB, the LIFE
and my fellow Chosen to MY OWN SECRETARY. Useless idiot. Should have
caved his skull in with that waffle maker thing. I might if he
complains about a headache when he wakes up. NOTHING HE IS
EXPERIENCING IS WORSE THAN WHAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH, WORKING WITH
HIM EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. That I am here, that is. Thinking of taking
a trip to foreign soil. Meet my international brothers and sisters.
See how their shit works. Or doesn't, more than likely. But maybe
they at least HAVE SECRETARIES WORTH A DAMN.
Fuckers. AGH. Just why does this shit
not make itself easy. It should be fucking easy. There is OUR SIDE
and THE DEAD SIDE. Not everyone gets the choice, but no one should
choose the DEAD SIDE. Stupid, fucking STUPID. Wasteful even. Why
couldn't it be the USELESS ones. Or the ones like Banks. GAH. Should
have fucking found that birdbrained fucker and stopped this shit from
happening in the first place. Or properly performed the fucking
ritual in his place. Playing with forces beyond your understanding is
NEVER a smart thing to do... So fuck, maybe he didn't goddamn know
what the hell he was really doing. Useless IDIOT. So why not punish
HIM.
Whatever. Fuck it. There are
consequences for leaving the family. I faced them, and so did all the
others in the end. This time will be no different, but maybe, JUST
maybe, if I get my way... I can at least ensure they will live to
regret their actions. I mean. The broken one was broken into joining
our family. Shouldn't be too hard to repeat the process, if I have
to. Heheh. I have the tools. The other one hasn't been broken, but
was always the more squeamish by all accounts. Ugh. What a waste.
Fucking waste.
Didn't expect this when I started this
new little diary blog. I mean, yeah. I knew there were a few people
still active. Thought it might be fun to see their inane little
comments on my true, REAL thoughts. Well. No more of that. Time to
begin dealing with the last of the blogging crowd. Turn this into a
real proper Gravestone for this sorry affair. Heheheheh.
Poor sweet Scratch, things are never simple are they?
ReplyDeleteCome deal with me then, if you think you can. I look forward to your visit
There is a process for these sorts of things. So sorry, you'll have to wait... But for how long?
DeleteOf course, dear. Well whenever your duties and schedule allow, I will be ready.
DeleteOh and please give Ritter my regards, if you can.
No. No you really won't be. That is the point. Otherwise I fucked up. And I don't fuck up anymore. LEARNED THAT SHIT.
DeleteReally now. I threatened to unbreak Fell and break her into something new, and you respond with PLEASANTRIES. Also Hart, but you never REALLY cared as much about him, did you? You have clear favorites. Shame, shame, shame. But still, I expect SOME amount of protective baring of teeth. Little bit of growling, as you get backed into a corner. Which is where you are headed right now. You sure you came back in the right mindset? You sure EVERYTHING came back with you? Do you even KNOW if you still care as much, or even enough, about your darling little pups?
Then I shall savor the suspense as I await whatever it is you have in store whenever it may happen.
DeleteYes, pleasantries. Text based tantrums are your domain, not mine, my dear. Why should I snap and bay at your threats to break my family when that would only serve to amuse you?
That aside, while I do respect your work and your talent when it comes to physical torture, I am finding it difficult to worry about you breaking Fell or Hart. You were unable to truly break Sanna after all.
Why? Because that is what a good, loyal doggie would do.
DeleteI had a limited amount of time with Sanna, and was limited with what I could do, as per the Plan. Didn't want to cause any permanent physical damage, after all. But, true, I also wouldn't want to maim Hart and Fell. Remind me, how long did you have Fell before you broke her in? A lot longer than I had Sanna. I have a feeling you might be better than me at a lot of torture styles... But I think my skills would be sufficient and re-breaking what is already broken, in Fell's case. She would go first, you know? Would help break Hart, I think. HAHAHA. Maybe I could end up switching their personalities if I kept the long enough. Wouldn't that be funny?
Heh... I must say, while it's obvious why you do it, it's amusing that you keep making dog references when out of the two of us, you are the one who still wears the leash.
DeleteFair enough. I concede the point that you only had her for a short time.
My little family has grown stronger than you give them credit for. That being said, I must commend you on being so confident in your abilities. Your parents surely must have done at least something right for your self-esteem to be so high
THERE WE GO. The low blows. Definitely touched a nerve. Heheheheh. Good. Very Good.
DeleteHart certainly has grown stronger. But Fell? You had to break Fell to make her. And the thing about people... Once broken, you can't ever put them back together completely again. TAKE NOTES SANNA. Fell is weaker now than she was when you first met her. And she is oh so devoted to you. You tell me. What would you do in my position to you? We both know how this works. What to target, and how.
Are you afraid for your family? What happens if... I did take them away? Hmmm? Break their minds and mold them like clay into something new? Leaving you completely alone, aside from Osprey and whatever might be left of Whelp inside you? Does that thought frighten you? Does it make you angry? Do you hate me?
You are right, that was a low blow. That was beneath me. I apologize.
DeleteDo I hate you? No Scratch, I don't. Despite our little back and forth here, I feel sympathy for you. You feel to me like... something of a lost little brother, angry and tormented.
It is alright dear. I understand
Oh. Oh. I know this game. The one where you don't answer the hard questions, in favor of responding to other shit. Redirects the conversation.
DeleteYou didn't answer whether you were afraid. If it makes you angry.
And you didn't even deny what I said about Fell. Funny. Hope Fell doesn't notice it. Of course, when I inevitably, SADLY, bring her downstairs, I will point it out every chance I get. Part of the therapy, you know. I'm sure Father would love for me to fix Fell up and send her after you.
It was still a part of your comment and a question that you might not actually know the answer to, but alright, just for you, my lost sibling, I'll play along.
DeleteThe thought of being alone does not frighten me, nor does it make me angry. Does being alone frighten you?
Does the thought of my family being seriously hurt make me angry? Yes.
Fell is stronger now than when I met her. She is stronger than she was before I died... Heh... before I died... Never thought I would be saying that.
I'll never be alone again. So it is a moot point.
DeleteHurt. Changed. Broken. The Anger is good. We'll see what it turns into by the end of this. Heheheheh.
I think your opinion on Fell is purely wishful thinking. You built her back up pretty well, don't get me wrong. But the cracks still show. And it will just take the proper amount of pressure along those cracks to make the whole structure crumble.
... You have a second chance. If I were you, I would be doing everything in my power to try and fix matters with Father. Go back to how things were. It'll make your renewed life a happier one, and maybe mean Whelp didn't DIE for nothing.
No, I simply know Fell better than you do
DeleteIt was not my choice or my wish to come back. Now that I am here, Ritter has rejected me. He does not appreciate or want the presence of something that can harm him.
You do for the moment, but we'll see in time won't we?
DeleteThen find a way to get rid of the thing annoying him. Osprey or that idiot Priest caused this. You can UN-Cause it.
I cannot simply get rid of it. It is part of me; threaded through my being. The only way to get rid of it would be to kill myself and- after serious consideration- I have decided not to do that.
DeleteThen UNTHREAD it. Replace the bits of it with bits of other things. Thread by thread if you have to. There is a goddamn way through this that doesn't involve turning your back on HIM.
Deletedamn, must be a good hallucination if i get to see you squirm like a bug in a sundew.
ReplyDeleteAfter I deal with my fellow zombies and the pups, I am coming after YOU to finally make things quiet around here. And I won't be as gentle as last time.
Deleteyou won’t find me. I’m still in the dark.
Deleteand I will VACUUM SEAL YOUR FUCKING THROAT if you DARE TRY
DeleteGotta say kiddies, I am LOVING this back and forth right now, it's fantastic.
ReplyDeleteOut of the two of you, I'd say I'm rooting more for Knitty, sorry Starman, but in a dog race, it would not be a smart thing to bet on a dig that is being hindered by a leash, you understand, don't you?
Smart bet would be the undying one in this equation. But that is fine. I would prefer you not root for me. Will make killing you all the more satisfying, after all.
DeleteOhohohoho! No snarky remarks, no sleazy attempts at getting under my skin, no elaborative torture descriptions, just a simple "I will kill you".
DeleteMy, my, you really are pissy over this aren't you? Why? It's not like going traitor is a new concept for Proxies, it happened so many times before, should have gotten used to it by now, right?
Are you jealous Star? That Knit can tell her boss to fuck off and you can't? That she can leave the shitty job at Walmart and you cant't?
Depressing.
You don't actually GET angry, right? That is the story you are spinning? So then what would be the point? Now I COULD torture you for a while. Strip out Fortissimo, boil it alive. Find out where your breaking point is and maybe... I dunno. Turn you into Fell. But lets be honest. You are better off just DEAD. Put you all out of my frigging misery.
DeleteIt never happened to anyone I gave a shit about, while I could say or do anything about it.
Useful COMPETENT family members are hard to come by. So this shit is a tragedy.
Fucking try it, bitch. Your ass will be on fucking fire before you can say "Help me, daddy!"
ReplyDeleteCute.
DeleteYes. I am certain I will be ABSOLUTELY no threat to you whatsoever. After all, you fought off Osprey, FUCKING OSPREY, with such skill, grace and efficiency. And that is why Whelp is still alive, and we have no problems whatsoever with each other's life choices.
OH WAIT.
Crawl up Jimmy's cock and die Luke
DeleteYou first Kristy.
DeleteIt would appear your intended goal for this blog has already been jeopardized. Might I recommend not airing all your goals and progress, at least until matters related to bloggers are settled?
ReplyDelete- S
Yeah, yeah. I know, I know. Why don't you go do something PRODUCTIVE with your time, instead of stating the obvious. Like whipping up some more of that DELICIOUS gas... Hey you think that shit would work on the Doggies?
DeleteWhat did I say.
DeleteWe will discuss this in person.
- S
Bring Harvest and Mumbles. I want a frigging SQUAD. I deserve one now, you know. EXECUTIVE MOTHERFUCKER.
DeleteExecutive and still being told off for doing whatever you want, man, what a life.
DeleteOh PLEASE. He can't tell me off. He works for ME. But... He isn't wrong. Heheheh.
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