HERE I AM. TRYING TO PLOT THE DEATHS OF
(largely) A FRIGGING HORDE OF TRAITORS. A TASK THAT MIGHT PROVE REAL
FUCKING CHALLENGING, AND NOW. NOW of ALL TIMES. They decide I am
needed for a thing. One of the Runners that was smart enough never to
go on the blogs, but not skilled enough to stay off of our radars,
went and did a thing that merits my involvement.
I love the idiots who think that they
can science their way out of becoming another one of Father's
victims. No matter how far outside the box they believe they are
thinking, it is never enough. They look forward, but never far enough
backwards. To see how generations of humans, less bound to logic and
established methods, tried to deal with the inescapable terror that
haunted them even then. Of course, there are no easy or concrete
solutions, no matter how far back you look. But there have been, I
admit, some damn good ideas. Ideas best left buried.
But it seems now a fellow has come
close to digging something up. Alexandre Loreid, formerly a professor
of anthropology at some University from somewhere. I don't really
give a shit, because he has been running for 13 years now, and
apparently anyone I might be able to use from his past is already
long dead. Loreid has even picked up his own obsessed Proxy nemesis.
Because that shit ALWAYS works well for us, right? Said nemesis was a
guy named “Playwright.” I know FUCK ALL about Playwright, but he
is apparently DEAD NOW. Killed in a struggle with Loreid. After said
struggle, Loreid apparently found something I am NOT allowed to
really discuss on here, at the moment. And I have been ordered to see
that it goes back to where it belongs.
By prying it from Loreid's cold, dead,
severed and mutilated, hands.
Now, this may surprise you, but I have
MANY QUESTIONS that have not been answered. The thing I am not
allowed to talk about, is something I know fuck all about. I don't
even know why this asshole taking it would necessitate someone like
ME jumping in. I also don't know the specifics of Playwright's death,
which feels like useful information to me. I don't know if Loreid is
working solo, or in a group. What little information we have in the
file, doesn't tell me much about him personally. Just that Playwright
already used up the “Friends and Family” card.
Oh. And I don't know where the fucker
actually is specifically. Just that it is Europe, which begs the
question of why the European Proxies aren't handling this. Playwright
died in North Poland, near the Baltic Sea. Which DOES NOT NARROW IT
DOWN MUCH. So I am ASSUMING Loreid isn't sticking around where
Playwright died. Did I mention I don't speak Polish? Or German? Or
any language that isn't English or VERY dead.
This is gonna be an exercise in
frustration...
But I suppose I had to go to Europe
anyway. Needed to see a man about a Mummy. Think it could teach me a
LOT of important facts about important things.
Jimmy can hold down the fort while I am gone. I think. My secretaries don't often do good without me, for some reason. Really need to learn some independence, instead of relying on me for all their food and water. HOPEFULLY fucking Jimmy won't be DEAD when I get back like the others. I will be SO disappointed. I might fire him. I employed him. I TOOK THAT BULLET. Better not be for nothing...
But don't think I've forgotten about
the Canadian problem. Already have a few good plans to deal with that
lot. Just a matter of implementing. And finding the time to do so...
Heheheheh. Curious, can our Pack of Now-Wild Dogs figure out my
strategies? Ask yourselves... What would you do in my position? Get
CREATIVE. Know your weaknesses, both physically and mentally. Especially mentally.
It won't help.
Oh, I will probably also briefly stop
by the the soggy, depressing, corpse of the British Empire. See
if I can pick up Sanna's scent, for later. That might be fun.
FUCK YOU!! I’LL TIE YOUR INTESTINES LIKE A FUCKING BALLOON ANIMAL!! And just HOW in merry fuck would you even try to find me???!!
ReplyDeleteWell. I could use my nose to sniff out the scent of sheer terror. Use my eyes to look for the person convulsing on the floor. My ears to listen for the sobbing and screaming. And my hands to hold a loudspeaker blaring our favorite song.
DeleteI could, in THEORY. Just, you know. Start threatening people, children, those little orphan chimney sweeps that I know INFEST the molding corners of the cities... Until you come out and, you know. Save them. Really there are a LOT of ways I could find you. But would it be worth the effort?
Right now? I just don't know.
so you just revealed how you would draw me out if it came to it.
DeleteCHEERS for the heads up, fuckface. now. i got more shrines to your god to deface. maybe work on ways put a little doubt in the minds of more of his followers. you know yourself, minds are so malleable. and didnt I learn from the best?? wouldn't that be funny?
HAHAHAHAHAHA
DeleteOH. RIGHT. YOU will put DOUBT in the minds of people like me. That is RICH. Not impossible... But certainly unlikely. With your... Current level of talent. You learned a few lessons from me, but nowhere near enough to really DO anything with. Heheheh. I can teach you FAR more, if you want. You have only to ask.
But yes, that is how I would draw you out. Tell me, do you really think you knowing about it will allow you to somehow avoid it? Unlikely. Heheheh.
Ah, working abroad, how nice. Have fun.
ReplyDeleteNot to be rude, but if I was in your position dear, I would be trying to find ways to end myself permanently.
Funny. I would be trying to do the same in YOUR position. For many, MANY reasons. You know your "family" is mortal, right? They were gonna die sometime, probably violently, even if you hadn't been brought back. Whelp too.
DeleteAnd guess what? That fact hasn't changed even with you back. You deciding to stick around and detach yourselves from your extended family... That will just speed along the process. Violent, horrible, death. And maybe it won't happen to you. Who knows. That thing that is now part of you might make you are immortal as I am. But Fell and Hart are NOT. If you had just crawled back into death, when Father commanded it... I bet in the end. Fell and Hart would have lived a much longer, happier, life than what is in store for them now.
It is really quite selfish. Heheheh. But I suppose you probably just looking at the end result, right? Going to suffer and die either way. You might as well ease your loneliness or conscience, or whatever meaningless reason you have for sticking around.
I bet we'll see Hart and Fell cursing you by the end for that selfishness.
If I was alone, as I was in the beginning and as you are now, I would have let him.
DeleteHeh, extended family... You mean like Osprey? Carmine?
"Deciding" is the key word Scratch. The power to decide, to choose which path to take, has been stolen from you. You have my sympathy
I am NEVER alone. Not anymore.
DeleteOh PLEASE. Those two idiots hardly represent the majority of us, and you KNOW IT.
That power is USELESS, you know that? Choice... You know my deal. All of you do. You know what I did when I exercised the ability to choose. And you saw how it ended. Me. DYING. Eventually being made into THIS. There is only ONE path worth traveling and I am already on it. I don't need anything else. None of us do, though you'll find that out the hard way soon enough.
AND BEFORE A CERTAIN SOMEONE DECIDES TO THROW HIS TWO CENTS IN HERE. THAT CERTAIN SOMEONE SHOULD REMEMBER HE DIED, LIKE AN IDIOT, AND NEARLY ALLOWED HIS BELOVED TO BECOME A SCIENCE PROJECT. And this go around, he is going to die like an idiot AGAIN, WITH his beloved. So much for choice.
His Fate is decided. So is yours, so is mine. You just don't know it yet. Be better off embracing it.
You keep saying that you're not alone; you say you don't need anything else, and yet, only a couple of posts back you were wondering where a dead woman might have placed your remains. Sounds like the words of a lonely little star to me.
DeleteScratch, have you so quickly forgotten? I was loyal to Ritter until the end. I died protecting him as well as my family. Don't try to act like staying loyal would have kept you alive
I figure if you are going to die anyway, isn't it better live on your own terms? I chose to serve Ritter in my past life. In this life, I chose to defy him. Because of that choice, Fell is alive and Hart isn't crippled. I am also choosing not to harm Ritter, in case that has also slipped from your viscous mind. All things considered, those choices don't seem so useless
I was just CURIOUS. Not lonely.
DeleteStaying loyal WOULD have kept me alive. I wouldn't have been captured by someone who wanted me DEAD. And I wouldn't have been in such terrible shape that I LOST that fight. Which means. I wouldn't be THIS right now.
Your own terms will give you a life that is both horrible and BRIEF. It always does. ALWAYS. If you had done as Father commanded, Hart and Fell would be no different than they are right now... Except. Their life expectancy would be a GREAT DEAL HIGHER. Actions, MISTAKES, have consequences. Not just for you, but for those you CARE about.
You "wouldn't be THIS". Interesting. You keep talking about your current state that like it's a bad thing. I thought you were supposed to be happy to serve. You do not seem very happy, my little lost sibling.
DeleteAgain, I already died loyal; doing what he commanded.
If I had let Ritter put me back in my grave, Hart would be crippled or dead. Those are some pretty severe consequences for someone I care about
I AM HAPPY TO SERVE. That doesn't mean I have to ENJOY the side effects of being THIS. This state is a punishment for my idiotic choices from before. But I am happy to serve.
DeleteAll you had to do was fix Hart and THEN do as you were told. Simple process.
HA! Oh yes, you sound downright delighted. Have you convinced yourself yet? If you have, you're the only one.
DeleteRitter had already made his exit by that point and he hasn't come back. But lets imagine for a moment that I were to track him down and let him kill me. What do you suppose would become of my family then?
The other benefits of the job more than make up for my issues with this form.
DeleteThen, they would be fine, assuming they go back to normal. So long as they continue to serve. Hell, knowing the powers that be... You might even get my treatment, once that thing is removed from you. Then everyone can be happy. Well, except for you, of course. You would be stuck with the problems of this form.
Even if that were possible, to be made into what you are- with no choice and my mind constantly manipulated by others- would be a fate worse than death
DeleteDude, do you really think we'd watch the faceless wonder kill Wolf and then go back to serving him?
DeleteFuck that! Anyone tries to hurt her or Fell, I'm going to fight them, no matter who or what it is.
I guaran-goddamn-tee Fell wouldn't go back to serving him after that either
Wolf, you better not even be thinking about doing this after everything because we fucking NEED you here
I don't know where you WENT when you died, but I... I know where I went. This isn't a fate worse than death. Far from it.
Delete... Well. That answers that, I guess. Two paths then remain. Fucking SHAME it has to be this way. But believe me... You and Fell will be thanking me when this shit is over.
No, I really don't think we will.
DeleteYou're a semi-conscious blob of the Slenderman's jizz, dude. That sounds pretty terrible to me.
I doubt Kristy thought she would fall "in love" with Wolf, at the time, either. And just like she did, you'll come around. Heheheheh.
DeleteYou are ignoring the cool shit I can do now. That is fine. It will make what is coming SO much easier.
Hah "coming"
DeleteJesus Christ what are you TWELVE? Tell me, which eye are you partial to? BECAUSE WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU AND FELL, I AM IMPLANTING THAT EYE IN FELL.
DeleteHahahahah well you DID just imply that you wanted to make me fall in love with you. That joke was a natural progression, man
DeleteWhat IN the HELL are you talking about?
DeleteAnd I quote "I doubt Kristy thought she would fall "in love" with Wolf, at the time, either. And just like she did, you'll come around."
DeleteAh.
DeletePoor wording. You know. I wasn't really sure who I was going to start with. You. Or Fell. THANK you for volunteering with such gusto. You've seen torture in action. Ever wondered what it feels like? What it REALLY feels like? Sure. You're brave now. Smug and mocking. Heheheheheh. But isn't that always how they are in the beginning?
HAHAHAHA oh shit Hart! We warned you before that you were going to catch the fucking gayness from the Wolf and me. Now you've gone and fucking spread it to this dick pickle. Look how fucking eager this cocksucker is to give it to you rough!
DeleteNope. Changed my mind. Turning Fell back into Kristy. That shit will NOT stand.
DeleteHmm. Since I bet Wolf won't be dying easily. Yeah. I think I'll break Kristy in, and throw her at Wolf. See what happens. OH. Maybe Wolf will try to capture her alive and break her back into Fell. How many times will be able to do that back and forth, before it just doesn't work anymore. Heheheh. Be a good research project.
I'll make Hart my assistant. Like Jimmy, but with more bleeding, and fewer limbs.
Well of course you'd fucking keep his ass close to you, loverboy. So you got a fucking thing for amputees huh? It's okay Starfucker, we're not here to judge
DeleteOh man, you people provide such great entertainment, the amount of times I chuckled while going through that chain, oh man, good shit. I even got mentioned, so I guess I'll respond to the call out.
DeleteYou call my death stupid? Oh yeah it was definitely caused by my impatience, which is stupid. But hey, I planned on dying and came up with a back up plan, which, as you said, wasn't full proof and led to my darling getting captured, which was an oversight on my part, true.
But here's what you're missing, not only did I come back and rejoin with my darling as I planned in the end, along the way we became stronger, allowing my darling to take control of this body, which in return allowed her to take her sweet revenge, things turned out in my favor after all, didn't they? Call it luck, call it accidental genius, call it whatever you like, it doesn't matter, since according to you, it's the end result that matters, which in your case, according to you, our fate's are all sealed, because we're on the wrong side of history.
Well, so far, by that logic, looking at the present situation, my choices are a spark of genius, not only am I back and rejoined with my darling, we've also gotten stronger and even I can tell you, that, that is false, since I've admitted to being dumb at certain points in my plans.
But I love how you hang this certain finality over our head as if you think I don't realize it. You think I don't know that at the end of my journey, what awaits me is the same nothingness I came back from? I'm actively pursuing it, I would have stayed within it, if there wasn't this seething realization within me that it is not complete nothingness, since the world I departed from still existed. So I'm not quite sure, what point you're trying to make there, it just seems to me, that you're trying to deflect the situation of your mindless slavery, by comforting yourself with the thought that ALL of us are on some locked down course to oblivion, simply because you are already there.
That's just sad, you say we commit dumb decisions, well I'll tell you what Knitty told you, I'd rather die, doing whatever the hell I want, no matter how dumb it may be and yes, I might get resurrected and used like you, or just die and be forgotten about, doesn't matter, as long as I'm doing what I want in this very moment, that's all that matters to me.
So enjoy your misery Starman, you wallow alone in it.
My, my, getting your hands full there buddy, careful, you know what they say about too much work, it tends to overwhelm the person both mentally and physically.
ReplyDeleteMan, you're cutting it pretty close to where I'm currently at, drop by, I'll buy you a drink.
It is annoying, but not overwhelming. I'll be fine.
DeleteMaybe I will drop by. Maybe I will.